It’s my father’s birthday today. He passed away several years ago but I like to spend time sifting through my memories on the day he came into the world.
I remember observing my father from a distance the morning he was scheduled for bypass surgery back in September of 2002…
It is a chilly Northwestern morning as I watch him adjusting his suspenders in the bathroom mirror, he reaches up to smooth his unruly gray hair, and I am charmed by the familiar gesture. I consider my dad a handsome man with a mischievous disposition. He has a gregarious nature and could charm the skin off a damn snake if necessary, but I got his eyes, and I believe we view life through a similar lens. I call this the blessing of the second born. (My older sister got his organizational skills) I notice that life has chiseled away his youthful features, like the faces of Mount Rushmore, I marvel at this monumental man.
He catches my eye in the reflection of the mirror, casually holding my gaze, as a lifetime of knowing passes between us. He gives me a little wink and I tear up unexpectedly. It feels like a band is squeezing my chest and I’m finding it hard to breathe.
My sister Nancy hands me a Styrofoam cup of coffee, breaking the spell, “come on, it’s time to go,” she says…
Today I am forever grateful that he was willing to risk death just to add a few more years to his life. I would give anything for one more day with you. Happy birthday Daddy!
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