What Are You Dreading?

It might be your center!

Where you stumble, there lies your treasure. The very cave you are afraid to enter turns out to be the source of what you are looking for. The damned thing in the cave that was so dreaded has become the center.” ~ Joseph Campbell

Technology can be a bugger.

The other day, I accidentally hit a conspicuous little button on my computer while in reader on Word Press, and boom, my blog reappeared on my social media site as if Will Smith after he apologized for slapping Chris Rock. And then some demented automated system emailed my followers of the “new” post. 

What the hell?

I had to scramble as if Shaquille O’Neal to figure out how to delete the damn thing, and still, the deleted post received 14 likes in a matter of minutes. 

Larry comes sprinting down the hall, he says, “did you just post a new blog?” I thought he was watching some sporting event on the television, but no, the race was just a cover, he was actually weeding out his email. 

Me, “no, it was a technical glitch.” Nothing to do with my incompetence. No.

He says, “well, good, because the link doesn’t work.”

“I killed it.”

“Yes, you did.”

“I thought you were watching a bunch of loud cars drive in circles at breakneck speeds.

“I’m multitasking.”

“There’s a study that claims multitasking is not good for you.”

“Well, that depends.”

“On what?”

“Your technical skill.”

“You’re coming dangerously close to my hot button.”

Wisely, he backs slowly away and returns to his multitasking.

Sorry if you got caught in the whole duplicate blog shenanigans.

On a completely unrelated note, I stumbled on the above quote by Joseph Campbell about how our treasures might just be the very things that trip us up, and it got me thinking. 

There is this huge box sitting in the middle of the sitting room. It’s an eyesore, and it’s been loitering in this space for months, literally tripping us up as we pass. 

It’s the box Larry dropped in the garage several weeks ago (okay, several months ago). 

I really don’t want to venture into the brokenness of the contents. It is also the last of the boxes I’ve yet to unpack from the remodel because the vessel that housed its contents has been repurposed. 

That “stuff” now has nowhere to go. So it sits in the sitting room and reminds me of my peccadillos. 

But now Joseph comes along and says it might be my treasure. 

The part of the quote that really got me was the second line that claims, “the very cave you are afraid to enter turns out to be the source of what you are looking for. The damned thing in the cave that was so dreaded has become the center.” I mean, how ironic that I was entering a dark cave just last week from a kayak on the ocean? 

The dreaded thing becomes your center. 

What does that mean?

Like the things I circumvent, I should really be celebrating. 

The box. The blog. The book.

But more importantly, a situation you have been avoiding, an idea or project that has been vexing you could be the push (shove) you need to move forward.

So I tackled the damn box.

And guess what?

Inside was….my baby book, a Swedish flag, a framed set of the house rules I posted when the kids were teenagers, and the outline of my first novel that has never seen the light of day. A Celtic cross, a pen my uncle made from a tree on my dad’s property in Washington, the key to an old mantle clock, a paperweight from my mom’s desk. A small glass container from Notre Dame (that didn’t break) filled with notes from students, an antique butter stamp with the letter O, shards of broken stuff (not that I’m bitter), but best of all, I found the book my sister gave me for my birthday six years ago, challenging me to go public with my writing. And there is my center.

This morning I said to Larry, “I had a weird dream last night.”

Larry says, “you have weird dreams every night.”

So I silently sip my coffee until he practically begs me to tell him.

“Come on, what was it about.”

“Well, if you insist.”

“How could I not?”

“Okay, last night, I dreamed I was standing on the side of a stage, waiting behind this long dark curtain, because I had agreed to be the lead singer for a cover band, and we were about to go on stage.”

“That seems very unlikely.”

“I know, right? I’m standing there filled with dread, thinking, what the hell am I doing? I can’t sing, but I’m like, oh well, I guess I agreed to do this.”

“How did it go?”

“I woke up.”

“Sounds like your feeling like an imposter.”

“Shit, I have imposter syndrome.”

And today…Grow Damn It is available to preorder! Bahaha.

If I had your email, I already slammed you with this information, so feel free to ignore the rest of the post! Or read it again, you decide.

Black Rose Writing sent me a link yesterday, they announced my book is available NOW at https://www.blackrosewriting.com/nonfiction/growdamnit. If you are compelled to purchase a book or two prior to the publication date of February 23, 2023, you get to use the promo code: PREORDER2022 to receive a 15% discount.

Whoot! Hoot! This might be a proper occasion for a little champagne! 

You should know that your preordered copy will process and ship on or prior to the release date. So you get it first! Calm down, it’s not that exciting, but it just might be the perfect accent for your guest bathroom. That has so many implications but let’s not be shit disturbers.

Grow Damn It will also be available for sale online at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and more… a few days after the publication date, so if you prefer a digital version or need more copies, there’s that.

Let’s sell some books, people!

Oh, and I added a sneak preview of the cover above!

Here’s to making imposter impossible dreams come true.

I’m Living in the Gap, stumbling around in the dark, thanks for going with me.

Linked below are fellow writers who have helped me out as beta readers, publicized my work, or written endorsements. In general, they have been the wind beneath my wings. I can’t thank you enough for your generous support.

Pete Johnson at Beetleypete, blogs about his dog Ollie, writes creative fictional series, and musings about life in Beetley, check out his blog when you have a minute. It’s fabulous.

Sally Cronin runs the Smorgasbord blog, a published writer herself, check out her blog for humor, charming videos, and marvelous literary reviews.

Debby G.Kaye hosts a blog called D.G. Kaye Writers, a published writer, she posts a weekly literary review and has a new series on spiritual awareness, I’m sure you’ll love it.

Laurie Buchanan is the writer behind Tuesdays with Laurie, she has a wonderful series of thriller novels, The Sean McPherson Novels, you won’t be able to put them down. Check out her blog for details.

Maryanne Pope has a lovely blog, Pink Gazelle Productions, and she’s the author of A Widow’s Awakening, a must-read for anyone who has ever experienced grief. It’s the difference between surviving and thriving.

Nancy Aronie hosts the Chilmark Writing Workshops (I had the privilege of attending, and she changed the way I write), she is the author of Memoir as Medicine, she’s absolutely amazing, take a minute to explore her site.


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    1. It was filled with treasures and lots of broken glass and I just wanted to avoid the entire box! But now I’m glad I tackled it. My parents lived in Chehalis Washington, 20 miles south of Olympia, the capitol. Thank you so much for ordering my book, your generous support warms my heart. I hope it doesn’t disappoint. Hugs, C

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      1. I’m sure it won’t disappoint. I know where Chehalis is. I grew up in Snohomish, north of Seattle. My mom lived in Olympia for years with her second husband. I had an internship in Olympia as a stringer for the Centralia Chronicle covering Capital news.

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        1. I spent a lot of time in the Northwest, we loved our parents property, and of course spending time with them. They had eleven acres, and our kids just loved the freedom of being up there exploring the forest behind the main house. I can’t believe you worked in Olympia. That must have been exciting working at the capitol and covering the news. Wow! xxoo

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        2. We had acreage growing up in Snohomish, too. My brother and I cut trails through the forest with machetes and build forts. The Olympia days were a great learning experience. I didn’t know anything about politics at the time.


    1. OMG, thank you Crystal! My husband just ordered 5 copies under a fake name! He’s worried that you’re the only other order! I told him that my sister ordered one and my cousin! So we have 8! I truly appreciate the support. Hugs my friend, C

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  1. Omg, I’m cracking up…again. Hilarious post, but look at the fortunes you were dodging. I do the same thing – look, bump into, step over, move around something I don’t wish to deal with. And never are they usually treasures like you have. Lol. Congrats again Cheryl on the upcoming book. I loved it and know many more will too. Thanks also for the mention. Hugs my friend. xox

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    1. Hi Debby, thank you, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who avoids the difficult task of sorting, relinquishing, and letting go of that which no longer serves. It’s torturous work. And I have to add, thank you for not ignoring that enormous manuscript I sent you, for diving in and offering the most uplifting feedback. You were an absolute balm to my anxiety. The words thank you barely covers the gratitude. Hugs, C

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    1. The problem is I got my dads fingers, plump, not extraordinarily dexterous, and rather clumsy. So there you have it, my “glitches” You are so warmly welcome for the mention and I am enormously grateful for your support not only with the book but over several years of blogging. You have gathered a generous and nurturing community and there lies your treasure. Hugs, C

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    1. You are so very welcome Laurie. I can’t thank you enough for the many shares though the years, the kind words, and the fact that you actually read that monster of a manuscript and generously responded to my work in the midst of your own publication. You’re amazing. Hugs, C

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  2. Oh Cheryl, when this post came up on my computer, I immediately knew that I was viewing something special …. the book cover. It’s amazing! And, I am super excited for you, what a tremendous accomplishment! You deserve a very big celebration. I can’t wait to read it. I have gone over to the “other side” and prefer the digital stuff, so I will get it as soon as Amazon will let me!!!
    I am also laughing at the “re-post” shenanigan….when it came across my email, I was confused because you don’t usually post twice a week, but I dove in to make sure I didn’t miss anything! LOL Glad you got it figured out and isn’t it funny how one little button can do so much! Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS! And as always … Best Wishes! Leigh

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    1. Thank you, Leigh. My daughter actually came up with the cover design, and they liked her ideas, so they went with it! I’m really pleased because it reminds me of the time Kelley and I spent at her local book store noting what we liked and didn’t like about book covers. Then we went home and put it all together. She’s quite creative. I have a lot of readers who love the digital form for reading, and it will be available on Amazon in early February. Thanks for the good wishes. Greatly appreciated. Hugs, C

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  3. I was immediately struck by the beautiful and enticing book cover as soon as I clicked on this post. So happy to see you/it made it to the finish line!
    Though I do still have my surreptitious “advance” copy I will certainly purchase one of the actual books, but only if I can get it personally autographed! Is that possible with preorder? And, on a personal note, I can see you had a slew of well-qualified beta readers so my usual procrastination did not impact the publication date.

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    1. Yes, I had lots of wonderful readers and I enjoyed honing their advice! And that finish line is still a bit away. I’m not sure how I get signed copies to people. I can ask my publisher if I can sign a few copies that have been preordered. I’ll let you know. And I so glad you like the cover! Hugs, C


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