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“Mother is a word we use for an angel with wings of love.” Apollo M ___________________________________ After watching an arresting movie last night, Nomadland, which left me feeling hollow and hallowed, I laid down with these intimate notions who spooned me as I dreamt, they were still with me in the early morning when the […]

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It’s early morning, we’re in the middle of Holy Week, patiently awaiting Easter, not standing in the full light just yet, but full of trust in our Lenten work. If I were being honest I would admit mine was an epic fail, but I’m hopeful because I believe the roots of new life often lie […]

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“Often when you think you’re at the end of something, you’re at the beginning of something else. I’ve felt that many times. My hope for all of us is that “the miles we go before we sleep” will be filled with all the feelings that come from deep caring – delight, sadness, joy, wisdom – […]

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“An eel of panic wriggles through him as he searches the room for exits, but life has no exits.” Andrew Sean Greer “From where I sit, the story of Arthur Less is not so bad,” of course I’m fortunate enough to be overlooking a morbidly calm lake, with low hanging fog that hovers as if […]

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As I take down Christmas at the lake, transferring Santa Clauses, reindeer, gnomes, sleighs, christmas trees, garlands, and ornaments onto the bed, I open my closet door, and decide my house is in need of cleaning. It’s Inauguration Day, four years ago I watched it with my Mom, in the hospital where she was receiving […]

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“Some things are so impossible, so fantastic, that when they happen, you are not at all surprised. Their sheer impossibility has made you imagine them too many times in your head, and when you find yourself on that longed-for moonlit path, it seems unreal but still, somehow, familiar. You dreamed of it, of course; you […]

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Do You See What I See “Winter collapsed on us this year,” says Emily Fridlund, leaving us exhausted, spent, and on our knees. Here we are on the brink of the winter solstice, the height of a worldwide pandemic, and praise be to God the end of 2020. Historically this time of year people celebrate […]

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I’ve been teetering on the edge of reason, weary, dizzy, exhausted for what seems like days. Escaping to the lake on my own was both a brilliant and impulsive move and possibly in need of revision. Someone once said that none of us are actually afraid of the dark, we’re scared of what it conceals […]

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The smudged living room window is in desperate need of cleaning, but I ignore that and squint through a haze of thick smoke at a seemingly endless expanse of blue. I can not see a hint of my beloved mountain which I know lies just beyond the fog, my hand restlessly reaching for my iPhone, […]