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“I am not a grace graduate,” I speak this out loud to an empty room, because I am continually in need of rescue, not from the world, but from myself. That was easier to type than to finally realize. A grace graduate knows when to let things go, she’s wise, compassionate, tolerant, and frugal with […]

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“To write is human, to get mail: Devine!” Susan Lendroth I didn’t know it would be the last letter I would ever write my Mother, that it would never be delivered, and I would not find it until four years after her death. Have you ever questioned your understanding of time? How it slips by […]

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Life is always under construction, but currently so is my house, it feels as if I’m perpetually bewildered, unbalanced, on the brink of the unknown. It’s awkward like racing into the women’s bathroom and realizing you are surrounded by urinals. We celebrated Mother’s Day in our backyard this year, Nic cooked his fabulous meatball lasagna, […]

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“Mother is a word we use for an angel with wings of love.” Apollo M ___________________________________ After watching an arresting movie last night, Nomadland, which left me feeling hollow and hallowed, I laid down with these intimate notions who spooned me as I dreamt, they were still with me in the early morning when the […]

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“An eel of panic wriggles through him as he searches the room for exits, but life has no exits.” Andrew Sean Greer “From where I sit, the story of Arthur Less is not so bad,” of course I’m fortunate enough to be overlooking a morbidly calm lake, with low hanging fog that hovers as if […]

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As I take down Christmas at the lake, transferring Santa Clauses, reindeer, gnomes, sleighs, christmas trees, garlands, and ornaments onto the bed, I open my closet door, and decide my house is in need of cleaning. It’s Inauguration Day, four years ago I watched it with my Mom, in the hospital where she was receiving […]

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Okay, I feel like an absolute fool for writing, “Let’s Make 2020 Unresolute,” I mean really, could any year be more unresolute? All I can say is hangnails seem much less annoying and never did I ever think I’d feel sorry for travel agents? That’s all I got. Alex Hagan says “for all the talk […]

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Do You See What I See “Winter collapsed on us this year,” says Emily Fridlund, leaving us exhausted, spent, and on our knees. Here we are on the brink of the winter solstice, the height of a worldwide pandemic, and praise be to God the end of 2020. Historically this time of year people celebrate […]

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Every morning, while the sun gently slumbers in the eastern sky, my granddaughter Cora (sometimes it’s Sienna or Audrey) scampers out of her warm bed, and climbs into mine. By this time Looney is entertaining the neighbors with his perfected burpee, as he grinds his way through a virtual bootcamp in the driveway. Languid is […]

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I thought I would know, instinctively, innately, an inkling would prickle the back of my neck, send shock waves down the length of my spine, but that didn’t happen. I remained blissfully unaware, until I was regrettably informed, dangling from the hands of a clock by my fingernails. There were insignificant chores to be done, […]