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“I am not a grace graduate,” I speak this out loud to an empty room, because I am continually in need of rescue, not from the world, but from myself. That was easier to type than to finally realize. A grace graduate knows when to let things go, she’s wise, compassionate, tolerant, and frugal with […]

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This is my husband’s go-to phrase when I complain about the trials and tribulations of life, especially when I was out numbered by children, Larry was traveling nonstop, and my mom lived two states away. It got to the point where he’d abridge the statement to, “tough times don’t last…” You can only imagine my […]

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Larry and Cheryl sitting in a tree, K…I…S…S…I…N…G, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage(I took those jingles a little too seriously)…and then what? Bertrand Russell says, “those who have never known the deep intimacy and the intense companionship of happy mutual love have missed the best thing […]

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“To write is human, to get mail: Devine!” Susan Lendroth I didn’t know it would be the last letter I would ever write my Mother, that it would never be delivered, and I would not find it until four years after her death. Have you ever questioned your understanding of time? How it slips by […]

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I’m listening to Fresh Air on the way up to the lake, the host Terry Gross is interviewing a scientist, Linda Griffith, who became famous for her work in grafting scar tissue shaped like a human ear onto the back of a mouse. Apparently the way a wound heals is key. Why am I listening […]

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Life is always under construction, but currently so is my house, it feels as if I’m perpetually bewildered, unbalanced, on the brink of the unknown. It’s awkward like racing into the women’s bathroom and realizing you are surrounded by urinals. We celebrated Mother’s Day in our backyard this year, Nic cooked his fabulous meatball lasagna, […]

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I have something to tell you that’s hard to admit, and if you know me at all, you know there is a story you’ll have to make your way through before I get to the point, indulge me. My grandfather was an upholster by trade, he was exceptionally skilled in my mind, owned a little […]

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Defining spaces has become my new obsession.  We’re in the middle of an expansive remodel, I’m teaching hybrid (half my students in the classroom, half on Zoom), and I’m having a world of trouble letting go of the old to make room for the new. As you know I’ve been giving myself over to Sam […]

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“Mother is a word we use for an angel with wings of love.” Apollo M ___________________________________ After watching an arresting movie last night, Nomadland, which left me feeling hollow and hallowed, I laid down with these intimate notions who spooned me as I dreamt, they were still with me in the early morning when the […]