When I allow the past to dictate the future, it’s as if I’m a fish swimming upstream, battling the current, overwhelmed by my own anxiety. I have this uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach, as Julia Gregson describes, like when you’re swimming, and you want to put your feet down on something solid, […]


“Some things are so impossible, so fantastic, that when they happen, you are not at all surprised. Their sheer impossibility has made you imagine them too many times in your head, and when you find yourself on that longed-for moonlit path, it seems unreal but still, somehow, familiar. You dreamed of it, of course; you […]


The very things I want most in life are often elusive. The intangible concept of self that seeks compassion without revealing it’s soul, my ever present ball busting ego, or that carefully constructed outer persona who demands center stage. Most of the time I’m just confused by my thoughts, the ceaseless internal conflicts, and the honest […]

Mt. Konocti, our own 4,300 foot volcano, is the focal point of California’s largest freshwater lake, known as Clearlake (the name is a little deceptive). The volcano has been dormant for 10,000 years but the landscape is alive and well. The Pomo Indians dominated this region for 11,000 years, until the onset of the white […]